Showing posts with label Non Fiction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Non Fiction. Show all posts
Dear,
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I know you like to see me from long distance, when your boundary is infinite, I wonder why do you always revolve around me. At times, I feel like you're moving away from me. It takes a very longtime to discern that you intend to follow me. Sometimes I just want to see you in my life, but my desire wants to live with you until the last breath.
Every single soul in this world may love you, and they may feel like me for you. I know they have better words than me to get near you. You may think that I have the shadows of others. Even so, my love for you doesn't have the shadows of anyone. Every time when I see you smile; I don't want to be the reason of your smile. I want to be your 'smile'.
You don't know that,
I'm not a good singer,
I insist to sing for you;
I will sing for you only -
Something like a lullaby.
The moment when you're not with me, you're not only making me blind, but I see the whole world is blind . I fear that I can't impress you. When you're with me, I lead my foot without any fear even when my eyes are blindfolded.
In the best books I read, they say, "love is beautiful with a lie!" Now I know, "why my love is not beautiful!"
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Every time when I'm feeling blue, you ask me, "Stay, little cheerful and stay calm." You always forget to tell, "Where can I find the peace? Where do you want me to stay? I can't focus and find comfort anywhere else on earth." When I try to speak, you hide your emotions behind the eyelids and warned about future.
We have faced dark days; you may have thought like, "I will become one of the someone." I know, but I don't know how to curb those fear. So I sow some new plans, then you may know me when we reap happiness together.
The whole world knows that you're the only one for this universe, but you're the only one I have now.
All these things lead you to stop your journey towards me. Now,you want me to stay away from you. I stay calm, even when you want to bid farewell to me. I decide to see you from long distance as like you see me. Both of us can see other. Where no one will know about me, while everyone loves you, which include me too.
Love :)
The day I was walking through the
land of strangers, my mind was disseminated by the ambient scenery and
step-by-step moved towards the monster's land. As I was standing in front
of void deck and stared at those heads who were rushing along the road. I had
been asking myself "where are they going?" Even they didn't have the
time to see who was passing them. I wondered, "Whether they have an
appointment with God?" I nodded and slowly walked towards the place, where
my eyes were witnessing a crowd with an expectation "I will talk with
someone". When I was near that environment, I realized it was a children's
park. 
I crawled my feet into the park; my
conscience had an intuition, like "I'm a bit familiar with this place, and
these people will feel me amiable one". I saw two kids were playing
in the sand with their plastic toys, few of the kids on see-saw and a sibling
on the swing. Before I began my walk, I had a really good time with an unknown
kid who gave me flying kiss even, and it was the reason for the intuition. I
was surprised; none of the kids were looking at me, but all my visual were with
them. I remembered the words of my friend "these people won't talk
with us easily" and told myself, which includes kids too.
When the time I was
moving away from the playing area, I didn't forget to leave my smile on those
candid faces. I thought to go back to my room until I was stopped by an old man
who might be in his 70s. He inquired about me; I was precisely answering
for all his questions without any hesitation. Lately, I was trapped
into his discourse and shot by his series of questions. I knew well; a
good conversation starts with a lot of questions, and I was virtually realizing
it from him. Despite, Initially I never dared to raise a question. Time
consumed, I started to ask my questions, and he interpreted everything in his
own ways and ideas.
He talked a lot
about his culture, people, and lifestyle, told me about his wife, family and
friends. He didn't forget to ask about my religion, culture, and as well about
God. I was quite surprised by that kind of question, puzzled in some way, and I
didn't expect either. He was talking at the regular intervals; I whispered
myself. "Will I talk to any stranger like him?" And sighed,
"I won't". Apparently, I was looking for a talk with anyone
before I started my walk; during the conversation with him, I felt, "It's
enough for today".
Moreover, we were talking for more than twenty-odd
minutes, finally; we were about to leave. He asked my mobile number and
exclaimed: "I was a pastor, and I would like to invite you for Bible
reading, people gathering and so on". I gave my number to him.
However, on the other hand, my mind was filled by happiness as I didn't inform
about "I'm an atheist". When I knew, he was a pastor, I doubted it
might pave way for a debate, but blissfully I didn't tell him. We were tending
away from each other and walked to our place. After some distance, I
turned, and looked at him revived "Whether he is God's man or
God-man"
The very next day in my classroom when I
turned right, saw her, and she was exactly opposite to my seat. Even I talked
with her several times, and every-time it was fortuitous. Though I didn't
have any intention to talk with her, but talked with her half-heartily.
Everything was fine until the time; there was a small dispute between us. As
I was really expecting a situation like that, I used of it. I didn't talk with
her and started to avoid her. However, it wasn't even a brawl, it was a
normal talk, and nothing was wrong with her side. In other words, intentionally
I made it as a squabble. From that occasion onwards, I hurt her on various
circumstances until the last day in college. I remember well; she was trying to
talk with me on the last day in my college as usual I ignored and left the
place. At that instant, I thought I wouldn't ever think about her once again in
my life.
After a period of two years, one of the
things happened in my life droves my memory in a few years back, and it
visualized the thoughts of her. As soon I remembered the whole incident happened
between us and examined. I couldn't even answer the questions asked by my
intuition and in the end, really ashamed of my behavior. How much cruel in my
attitude, and I was completely wrong, in my opinion.
It was almost four years; she was trying
to talk with me, but I ignored her every single time. When the time I realized
my mistake, I had an interest to talk with her. A few months later, I
chatted with her on a social-networking site, and she was quite surprised. Even
she didn't believe that I'm talking with her. I didn't ask sorry as whatever I
had been made earlier was completely up to my knowledge. I felt talking with
her is the better way rather than asking sorry, and I did it. It had been a
period of six odd years to realize my mistake and still now I couldn't get the
answer to the question "Why I didn't like her on that first day?"
Until now, I really heartbroken with
my behavior and someday I would tell her "I'm sorry, you’re my
friend"
On a sunny evening, while the shadows from surrounding trees were acting as shelter and protecting us from the sunshine. I accompanied a friend, initiated the journey heading towards the highest mountain in the Nilgiri hills named as Doddabetta. We were encircling the road lined with huge trees in the mountain; sky started to look darker and darker. The little heat of the sunshine was overshadowed by cool breeze, kind of drizzling, which led to horripilation in my hands. It might be around 15-20 minutes; we reached the parking area of the hill.
Instantly, we parked our vehicle and started to look at the surrounding scenery. We could see many vehicles that gave me an idea of the crowd. From there on-wards, we continued the journey by foot, and we were passing the time by watching trespass shop on either side of the path. It took merely five minutes to reach desired place. As I expected earlier, it was really crowded around the spot. I was able to evidence different kind of people and accent. While I was sightseeing, my friend was moving to the other side of the place.
I started to follow my friend in-between; I saw a group of people who were focusing towards a person. However, my friend was moving towards the nearby valley; I supposed to follow him. Within a few minutes, we reached the valley, I stopped walking, but my friend continued his walk and entered the jungle. I was sitting on a little rock near the valley and started to look through the beauty of nature. We spent hardly ten minutes near the valley and when the time my friend returned from the jungle, we started to move towards the parking area.
While walking back, my eyes were focused on the group and once again got my amenity. I saw a person who was an artist by profession, and he was drawing the image of the human faces. I was watching his drawing skills. Suddenly, my friend insisted me to leave the place. Someone was smoking in a smoking prohibited public place, and it caused coughing to my friend. Soon we were walking out of the particular place. Meanwhile, my friend was rushing to approach the guard to give a complaint about the smoking of a person in a banned place.
Initially, there was not at all a good response from them and even a bit negligent about my friend's proposal. I was brawling with my friend "why are you making this as an issue, and they are not even responding to you?" Even so, he gently replied, "It doesn't matter whether they are going to take action, but it's my duty to tell about it". In other-words, I could say as "perform your duties without expecting any reward for it". Usually, I'm one among the people who doesn't like that kind of offense in a public place, but never dare to take action against it. At that instant, my friend's word left me speechless and made me feel like an awkward moment.
Simultaneously, I listened to the voice of a guard giving instruction to another guard "Just go there and check, at least for his words (my friend) ". Later, we continued our walk to the parking area.
Everyone and everything around you is your teacher. ~Ken Keyes, Jr.
As like above quote I learned a good thing from my friend, and it was an another message in a journey. A Journey with a Friend.
On that particular day, I was quite early reached the railway station. The train arrived at the concerned platform, even ready for the departure. Without any delay, I rushed to find my seat, and I left with disappointment after I saw my seat because it wasn't a window seat. Nevertheless, the train wasn't that much crowded especially in my compartment. So, I was easily managed to get a window seat which was exactly opposite to my booked seat. After almost half-a-hour, the train began its journey and moving towards its destination.
After sometimes, I made up my mind to read a book titled as "who will cry when you die". I was pretending like I’m busy with reading the book, but I was watching the ambient scenery which was moving slowing from my eyesight while breezes were shooting my face. During that period, I felt someone was watching me (kind of intuition). I saw nearly five - six members belonged to a single-family and the one who was watching me might be 10 years old little girl. I visualized a smile in her face when I turned my face towards her.
Lately, I had noticed she was trying to get my attention by playing, shouting, dancing and doing something naughty. She succeeded in her efforts; finally, she transported my attention from outside scenery to towards her. After she got my full attention, she started to do a different kind of stuffs (even singing too); in between she didn't forget to make sure that I was watching her. Later, she started to hide her eyes and peeking through the holes in-between her hands and laughed at me. I guessed she wanted someone to watch her activities as she was bored with travelling. Though, I didn't want to see the disappointment in her face. So I was keeping my eyes towards her.
It was the time; she was reaching near to the destination while her parents were busy with handling luggage. It was almost two odd hours; she did that kind of activities, even so it had been passed just like a few minutes. Whenever the train reached that particular destination, she was standing in front of me, and I guessed she was trying to say "Good Bye”. And the funny thing was that we don't know each other's language. I just came forward raised my eyes, nodded my head and looked at her. The smile in her face was disappearing from my view, and the train started to move. This incident made me feel "language isn't a barrier" to show affection.
Have you ever imagined your world around kids? I wonder how many of you would like to spend your time with little kids. Concretely, I like to spend most of my time with them, but I spend at least one hour per day. Most of the neighbours around my home had kids (I mean baby) when the time I grew up. I think that is the reason why I am addicted to spend my time with kids.
One of the most important reasons, why I like to spend my time with kids is my selfishness. Indeed, reason is nothing but for my mind relaxation. Just imagine a hectic day with full of stress, frustration and depression. In that situation if I supposed to splurge a half-hour with kids’, wholeness will be alright and very soon my mind will be free. I cannot even compare anything to their invaluable smiles, innocent mien in their face, and veracious tears in their eyes when the time I bother them. There is no such evil thing in their smiles like some human being. I cannot describe that kind of feeling. I guess everyone should feel it rather than from my words.
Whenever I stepped into steps, bus started to move out of the interchange. I always would prefer a window seat, and the reason is, I could figure out what's happening outside. On that particular day, it was really crowded. However, I got a seat, but not a window seat. Meanwhile, the bus moved out of the city. After a few stages, a man who was seating near me alighted. Soon I crawled into the window seat.
My head turned and eyes began to focus on outside views through the window, while the bus was moving at an average speed. Later sometimes, the bus stopped in a stage, but there was no sign of passengers' movement. As a curious guy I stood up from my seat to see what happens. There was a man may be around 30 years of age who was trying to step into the bus. Actually, the man was a physically disabled person who couldn't walk. Finally, he entered the bus. One of the co-passengers left his seat to him.
Over years back, my day began when I started to find the mobile around my bed. Just like any other guy of my age, I used to wake up with my mobile. As soon as I sent morning greetings in all the social networking sites, after sometimes, I got a message from a person who was from southern India and his message was
Whether you used XYZ messenger? Do you remember me?
That question puzzled me and I started to grind my mind to remember about him. I felt very comfortable that he might know me well, at least know me due to the confidence level in his question.
Who is he?
"Who is he?” - Those questions drove my memories back to a year ago. It was the time, I began my walk in to a new world which is completely different from my reality world. I always had turmoils around my new world. As a newbie netizen, I always had a dilemma about people, "whether they are believable or trust-able". I’m quite frightened to talk to someone.
During that time, I came to know that person through a messenger website. He was an amiable guy even though I hesitated to accept him in my contact list due to the bad thoughts I had about online people. With a lot of confusion, I accepted his request. Days moved on, I started to believe him and we were chatting almost every day. We started to discuss about many different things, just like real friends, and even shared about our personal lives too.
After 6 months, we lost contact and were never able to contact each other again because we didn't exchange our details. Frankly, I never had a thought about him until I received that message. I realised that "he is my old friend". I messaged him back, “I remember you and glad you recognised me."
From that day onwards we became good friends. I’m glad to say he was the very first person I met from the online world.
It is an incredible incident in my life, the way he found me from an ocean (twitter) without any details about me is simply amazing. I don’t know whether everyone had an experience in their life like my journey. Well, I have to say these things as “Lost and Found - An Incredible Incident ”.
Soon we started to walk away from that place. She was too fast and I followed her like a kid. (It’s worth to mention about her simplicity) Even though I knew that she was a rich girl, she was very simple, simply like how my girl should be. I thought golden times in my life starts from here. (But it ended within a few minutes actually). And we reached a place to have our lunch.
In an evening time, I was in a food court along with my sister to have soft drinks. Soon we bought those drinks and were seated nearby. In the meantime, we saw a visually impaired man, who was trying to locate a shop to buy some food item. So many people were around the area but frankly none of them were looking forward to help him when he stuck himself between the tables. Somehow, he managed to help himself and came nearer to my table.
Till that time, I blamed the people about, who didn't help him. When he came to sit closer to my table, soon my friend (sister) tried to help him but she did not understand his dialect. Another woman, who was a sales girl in that shop, tried to help him but she left after some time. But my friend tried to help him even after she left. Suddenly I felt something was wrong and insisted her (sister) to leave the place immediately without helping him. After some days she asked me "why I've behaved like that?" - I'm answerless.
Travelling is one of my favourite things that's how I like to spend my time, I love to travel as much as it makes me tired. I get to meet different kinds of people, the things they do are really interesting to watch. I prefer to travel by train rather than any other mode of transportation because we can meet hundreds of people within some minutes especially while travelling second class in India. I can witness real people's lives. Let me narrate one of my unforgettable journeys.
It was in the month of July 2011, while I was travelling to home by train. Between I forgot to say that we can buy all sorts of things while travelling on the train (in India). There are a few annoying things like begging amongst other bad things. As I have mentioned before I was on the way to home, when the train stopped at a station, Passengers were rushing to find their seats on the train.
Everyone has sweet memories in their childhood days, Of course this is one of my sweetest (Shocked) memories, accidentally got into my mind today. It happened 15 years ago I think.
When I was doing 5 th grade, had a friend who had been a topper in my class from long time back (years). Though I'm not a very close friend of him. It happened during the month of December, in a midterm examination that guy failed in his examination and unfortunately I was the class topper in that examination. But the fact everyone (teachers and friends) surprised “Why that Guy failed in the examination? ". One of my teachers inquired him and his parents regard “What’s the reason behind his failure? ". But the reason shocked not only my teacher but also shocked me. He said to my teacher as " Kannan ( me ) is my friend and I failed in the examination to make him ( me ) as topper " Everyone in my class laughed after his reply, it was one of my sweetest moments . Is it for Friendship?
