The sky was turning into darkness; the
clouds were entwining together as a shelter to the sky, and the sun
was ardour to hide behind the sky just like got shy by seeing an
acquaintance. I sat on the corner of a bench in a roadside garden as I was
waiting for her arrival. It had been a long time since the last time I saw her and time by time I was losing my patience that she
wasn't on time. Simultaneously, my mind was mesmerizing with
that ambient scenery, and it was giving me the thought of her, my love.
She didn't like to see the tears in my
graven face as she always vanished it with her tears of joy. Primordially,
there was consistently a person against us who was trying to stop my
relationship with her. Though, she never failed to leave a blissful smile
in my eyes. When she was touching the palm of my hand, she gave a
meaning to my life, and every time she was recalling my soul to say,
"I'm always there whenever you need; I will never leave you alone".
She had never supposed to wear a perfume,
but the natural scent of her aroma was making me unstable, and it popped out my
heart intensely. She was the one who proved to me that age difference doesn't
matter when it comes to love as she was older than me. I was almost walking in
a dreamy land because of the ambient scenery, and I lost myself in her thoughts.
I didn't recognize myself until she was touching my palm, there was lightning
and thundering around me as a sign of my love's arrival. As they were welcoming
her, she was starting to flow from my head to the toe - - The Rain !
Finally, she came, met
and spent some time with me; "It was never going to be an ordinary day".
Don't search me
The day when I'm not with you,
The time when you’re thinking about me,
The hours when you're driving your memories to look behind,
The minutes when your heart is missing me,
The seconds when your eyes are looking for me,
You have to realize I'm always within you as a smile on your lips,
Don't search me
The very next day in my classroom when I
turned right, saw her, and she was exactly opposite to my seat. Even I talked
with her several times, and every-time it was fortuitous. Though I didn't
have any intention to talk with her, but talked with her half-heartily.
Everything was fine until the time; there was a small dispute between us. As
I was really expecting a situation like that, I used of it. I didn't talk with
her and started to avoid her. However, it wasn't even a brawl, it was a
normal talk, and nothing was wrong with her side. In other words, intentionally
I made it as a squabble. From that occasion onwards, I hurt her on various
circumstances until the last day in college. I remember well; she was trying to
talk with me on the last day in my college as usual I ignored and left the
place. At that instant, I thought I wouldn't ever think about her once again in
my life.
After a period of two years, one of the
things happened in my life droves my memory in a few years back, and it
visualized the thoughts of her. As soon I remembered the whole incident happened
between us and examined. I couldn't even answer the questions asked by my
intuition and in the end, really ashamed of my behavior. How much cruel in my
attitude, and I was completely wrong, in my opinion.
It was almost four years; she was trying
to talk with me, but I ignored her every single time. When the time I realized
my mistake, I had an interest to talk with her. A few months later, I
chatted with her on a social-networking site, and she was quite surprised. Even
she didn't believe that I'm talking with her. I didn't ask sorry as whatever I
had been made earlier was completely up to my knowledge. I felt talking with
her is the better way rather than asking sorry, and I did it. It had been a
period of six odd years to realize my mistake and still now I couldn't get the
answer to the question "Why I didn't like her on that first day?"
Until now, I really heartbroken with
my behavior and someday I would tell her "I'm sorry, you’re my
friend"
On a sunny evening, while the shadows from surrounding trees were acting as shelter and protecting us from the sunshine. I accompanied a friend, initiated the journey heading towards the highest mountain in the Nilgiri hills named as Doddabetta. We were encircling the road lined with huge trees in the mountain; sky started to look darker and darker. The little heat of the sunshine was overshadowed by cool breeze, kind of drizzling, which led to horripilation in my hands. It might be around 15-20 minutes; we reached the parking area of the hill.
Instantly, we parked our vehicle and started to look at the surrounding scenery. We could see many vehicles that gave me an idea of the crowd. From there on-wards, we continued the journey by foot, and we were passing the time by watching trespass shop on either side of the path. It took merely five minutes to reach desired place. As I expected earlier, it was really crowded around the spot. I was able to evidence different kind of people and accent. While I was sightseeing, my friend was moving to the other side of the place.
I started to follow my friend in-between; I saw a group of people who were focusing towards a person. However, my friend was moving towards the nearby valley; I supposed to follow him. Within a few minutes, we reached the valley, I stopped walking, but my friend continued his walk and entered the jungle. I was sitting on a little rock near the valley and started to look through the beauty of nature. We spent hardly ten minutes near the valley and when the time my friend returned from the jungle, we started to move towards the parking area.
While walking back, my eyes were focused on the group and once again got my amenity. I saw a person who was an artist by profession, and he was drawing the image of the human faces. I was watching his drawing skills. Suddenly, my friend insisted me to leave the place. Someone was smoking in a smoking prohibited public place, and it caused coughing to my friend. Soon we were walking out of the particular place. Meanwhile, my friend was rushing to approach the guard to give a complaint about the smoking of a person in a banned place.
Initially, there was not at all a good response from them and even a bit negligent about my friend's proposal. I was brawling with my friend "why are you making this as an issue, and they are not even responding to you?" Even so, he gently replied, "It doesn't matter whether they are going to take action, but it's my duty to tell about it". In other-words, I could say as "perform your duties without expecting any reward for it". Usually, I'm one among the people who doesn't like that kind of offense in a public place, but never dare to take action against it. At that instant, my friend's word left me speechless and made me feel like an awkward moment.
Simultaneously, I listened to the voice of a guard giving instruction to another guard "Just go there and check, at least for his words (my friend) ". Later, we continued our walk to the parking area.
Everyone and everything around you is your teacher. ~Ken Keyes, Jr.
As like above quote I learned a good thing from my friend, and it was an another message in a journey. A Journey with a Friend.
On that particular day, I was quite early reached the railway station. The train arrived at the concerned platform, even ready for the departure. Without any delay, I rushed to find my seat, and I left with disappointment after I saw my seat because it wasn't a window seat. Nevertheless, the train wasn't that much crowded especially in my compartment. So, I was easily managed to get a window seat which was exactly opposite to my booked seat. After almost half-a-hour, the train began its journey and moving towards its destination.
After sometimes, I made up my mind to read a book titled as "who will cry when you die". I was pretending like I’m busy with reading the book, but I was watching the ambient scenery which was moving slowing from my eyesight while breezes were shooting my face. During that period, I felt someone was watching me (kind of intuition). I saw nearly five - six members belonged to a single-family and the one who was watching me might be 10 years old little girl. I visualized a smile in her face when I turned my face towards her.
Lately, I had noticed she was trying to get my attention by playing, shouting, dancing and doing something naughty. She succeeded in her efforts; finally, she transported my attention from outside scenery to towards her. After she got my full attention, she started to do a different kind of stuffs (even singing too); in between she didn't forget to make sure that I was watching her. Later, she started to hide her eyes and peeking through the holes in-between her hands and laughed at me. I guessed she wanted someone to watch her activities as she was bored with travelling. Though, I didn't want to see the disappointment in her face. So I was keeping my eyes towards her.
It was the time; she was reaching near to the destination while her parents were busy with handling luggage. It was almost two odd hours; she did that kind of activities, even so it had been passed just like a few minutes. Whenever the train reached that particular destination, she was standing in front of me, and I guessed she was trying to say "Good Bye”. And the funny thing was that we don't know each other's language. I just came forward raised my eyes, nodded my head and looked at her. The smile in her face was disappearing from my view, and the train started to move. This incident made me feel "language isn't a barrier" to show affection.
Do you worry? Whether worrying gives you something? Have you ever felt changes in your lives? Have you ever asked yourself “Why are you worrying”? Do you ever try to stop worrying? Probably, yes would be the answer to most of the questions. Before you get ready to think about those questions, I would like to share my experience. Many years ago; I had been thinking much about the puzzling way of life & career and started to worry. Day by day, I started to worry too much. Suppose, if I had some free time very soon, I was starting to worry about everything. Alike, I was waiting for the time to start worrying. When the time I asked myself "Why I'm worrying?" I visualized a drastic change within me and in my career as well. Even I had some backlogs in my examinations.
“Worry often gives a small thing a big shadow. - Swedish Proverb”
